Sunday, February 20, 2011


I am so bored, it is not even funny! I feel like poop.. I am lazy as hell, yet TV isn't keeping me entertained. It is snowing again. Tomorrow is Monday... blah! Nick is doing homework so he can't entertain me either. Wrinkles is down and out too... ahhh.. what can I do to entertain myself??? I want to read a book, but right now that sounds like too much strain I don't wanna put on my brain and eyes.
Crap... I hate boring lazy days!

I need news from DC, please!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I Made My Own Blog

I have a personal blog now! :) It is going to be a reflection of the mess that I am. I will attempt to update it regularly, and for now I think I am going to concentrate mostly on the things I cook. I have a really hard time trying to keep my recipes organized, so maybe this will help, and maybe you guys will find some of my 'creations' delicious.

Ummm. I miss having friends, so hopefully this new blog will attract some random person in cleveland that I will automatically hit it off with. LOL. Wishful thinking.... I know!

Kim, I hope you are feeling better, and I can't wait to hear all about this DC trip?! How come I know nothing about that???


Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Valentine's Day, Dear Wife!!!

Hey wifey,

I do apologize I have acted like a jerk today, and didn't even send you flowers!! However, you have been on my mind all day, and I truly miss your face!

So please accept my gift, in blog form... and remember, you are my wife for a reason, and I love you!

I hope you had a great day!


Friday, February 11, 2011

What to Do This Weekend?

So as I said last week, I need some excitement in my life. This has become a very big issue for me, because I don't have anything to do, and the days just seem to go by, as I sit on the sidelines and watch my youth slip away. At the beginning of this year I promised myself I would try to enjoy whatever is left of my 'careless' years as much as possible, but so far (a month and a half (ummm... that's over 10%) into 2011, I have changed nothing and done nothing worth blogging or writing home about!!! I am upset about this, so I am determined to change it. Whether or not that change comes this weekend - we will see... I need some ideas about what I can do on a weekend when we expect snow and temperatures below 30!
The boyfriend has been upsetting me - he is super behind on his homework, and has been staying up late at night playing video games, so as of right now, I do not plan to include him in my plans for the weekend. It is just me and the pup! what should we do?!

I miss my friends, will someone please move to Cleveland, or to like Akron, or even Erie or Pittsburgh?! pls!

P.S. I am still feeling very blah, and I am hating the fact that I don't even have the BF to hang with, because sporting events on TV and video games are apparently more important to him than spending time with me and our dog. :S *shrugs shoulders - sigh!

P.P.S. Just found out Nick got the job at Office Max, he starts tomorrow. Although I am super glad he got the job, I am also very very irritated, as that means that he will spend even less time trying to catch up on his homework, and even less time with me. Ahhh! Why is time never enough, why does it feel like I am last on his list of priorities, when I am the reason he is in school in the first place?!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


So I did it...

I broke up with was surprisingly difficult...I actually cried and that wasn't something I expected to do

He told me I was sabotaging myself because I didn't believe I was good enough to have a nice guy....there may be some truth to that...I thought I was really ready to settle down and really find someone...maybe I made excuses as to why he wasn't good enough...I can't be sure...maybe he wasn't the one for me but I'm now trying to convince myself because he made a really good case...I want someone who wants to roam free the same way that I do...he told me that hanging out with my friends so much lately is what made me second guess it? Maybe, but I love my friends and whomever I end up dating has to be able to mesh with them...and I just couldn't see it happening, would he stay out late, act dumb, have game night, travel around and stay piled up in hotel rooms...he told me if I figure things out to give him a call because he wants to see me but he won't force it...

I told him maybe he'll find a nice girl on match...he said he thought he did


I also met a new boy named K...I don't really know what to say about the situation like I don't know if there's potential but getting drunk with him led to my epiphany about Adam...

The Friday started like almost any other...snuck out of work early, got some birthday supplies for Trisha's house, met Sugrue, decorated her place and headed to Sugrue's to bake cupcakes and grab food before the Bandits game...ok that's not like any other but you know what I mean

So we're hanging out at his place and the boys are trickling in slowly but surely...then Tim comes in with K...they work together, I immediately roll my eyes because I don't really care for K...I met him a few weeks before and he was pretty drunk and all in my personal space and I just generally wasn't a when I see him I'm not excited at all...I'm even less excited when I get stuck at the light with him as we're walking down to the arena and the other boys have left me...I'm silently cursing them when he starts up a conversation...just the basics what do I do, where do I live, blah blah blah...this is drastically different from the last week when I was outright mean to him for getting in my space...this time, uber-gentlemanly...we get to the arena, I take off and find the boys in our seats, he joins a bit later and sits in another row but I catch him stealing a few looks as I proceed to dance around with the boys...we leave the game partway through to get to Trisha's...everyone else comes after the game and we all drink and chat and have fun, K and I are chatting up a storm and it's super normal...he keeps pretty close to me for most of the night...we head out to the bars and I totally wasn't planning on going but Trisha talks me into we're at the bar and K just starts talking again and we are in the corner of the bar and talking and flirting and it was ridiculous...he gave me that tingle in my spine every time he whispered in my ear and we continued to flirt...he told me he thought I was mean when he first met me but I'm actually very sweet (which is true haha) and he tells me that he wants to kiss me and that he's distracted by my lipgloss and he's nuzzling my neck has his hand on the small of my back and I have active butterflies at this this moment I look at Trisha who is wasted and say I need to check on her, he grabs another drink for me after a quick friend check and a drink purchase we're right back where we were...everyone wants to leave so we head to Jim's grab food and as we're walking back he says you don't really want to kiss me do you, it was just the alcohol and I say actually I still do and he just stares at me almost like disbelief looking back I think he probably was like how did this bitchy girl turn out to be so awesome but I'm only speculating...Tim comes in at that point and the moment is I end up driving him and K back to Tim's car and Tim gives me a hug and hops out...K lingers and says how great it was to meet me, I respond we've already met and he leans in and nuzzles me one more time before they take off...what's even better is he got the okay from Tim to be my facebook friend...hahah we'll see what happens...maybe something, maybe nothing but those few drunken hours made me realize that things with Adam can't go on...

Boy update 1

So Neda left me a message on gchat to get my life in gear and get back to be honest I can't remember the last time I did...I should probably work on this...the issue is I haven't had time...I've either been working, out and about or sleeping...sometimes I update at work but I really try not to

So what has happened since the last time you ask?

Well for one Adam has become a big ball of's weird it's like his insecurities all bubbled to the surface after our weekend in Toronto..maybe I brought them on, I'm not sure although I am pretty sure I am at least part to blame...we talked and I told him I needed some space and some time to think...he took that as everything was a mistake and I want to break up with him and all this craziness...we haven't seen each other since the Toronto trip...I've been crazy busy with work and the weather has been pretty awful...but he hasn't called and barely messages and he seems generally uninterested so I in turn am double uninterested because well that's what I do...but what's worse is that I don't really miss him at all which makes me feel bad because he is a really nice guy and he really means well...but he is constantly asking if it's okay, if he's okay, why do I like him, why did I choose him...which at first I thought was one of those "wow I'm so lucky how did she pick me" kind of deals...and now I have come to realize that it's a "I need constant reassuring that you still like me" I really can't handle that, maybe it sounds bitchy but come on dude, be a DUDE! Like I'm spending time with you, I talk to you on the phone, I keep going on dates with you think I'm here for my health...I think I may have worked too hard at my life to fall into this kind of relationship I am getting out while I can...he sent me a message today that says he doesn't think I really like him anymore and I have only been waiting for the right time to break up with him (we talked on Saturday about going out tomorrow...pretty sure nowhere in there did I say I'm waiting for the end, however oddly enough now I am)

Random Update

I have nothing new, exciting, or interesting to say. Just another day in the office.. compiling analysis results into excel sheets and creating tables of results which need to go into my calc.

Ummm.. Wrinkles and I have puppy class tonight (maybe - we haven't been to puppy class in like 3 weeks due to bad weather, me getting sick, and bad weather again last week). I am hoping it will be fun. I think I am taking the Wrink to puppy daycare on Thursday, poor thing has cabin fever.

In other news.. My office at work has been invaded by an army of tiny little ants! I HATE ants! I hate them so much, that I can't concentrate on anything because I am constantly scratching myself, imagining them biting me and crawling all over me... and I am trying to kill them all, but they seem to come out of no where. :( boooo!!! I hate ants!

Well .. I leave you all with a picture of my two 'kids' laying around. As you can tell - Nick won't let me take a picture of him.. We are coming up to our 2 year anniversary and we don't have a single picture together. I have a total of like 3 actual pictures of him, and 2 of them are pictures his dad gave me, when I first went over to his parents' house. :(

P.S. I made that pressure cooker recipe on Friday - and it was delicious!!!! I don't remember it being that good - but I guess my tastes have changed since the last time I had it. The pork was so tender, it dissolved in my mouth!!! And Nick, who HATES cooked cabbage of any sort, actually had a whole lot of it!!!! He mostly ate the pork, but he also had a little serving of the cabbage and liked it! :)

Friday, February 4, 2011

I Plan To Make This Today!

I have never made this... yet. But that will change tonight. My mom makes this recipe all the time, and she just sent me it today. She bought me a pressure cooker last year, and I have yet to use it... so not only is the recipe new to me, but the whole cooking method. Needless to say I am not very hopeful about it turning out great right away, but I will definitely try.
From what I remember it is very delicious... However, I should warn you guys: it goes great w/ bread/bread sticks or dinner rolls... so if you decide to try dipping some bread in it, it may not be as waistline friendly as it looks, because bread is something I can't control myself with.
Either way, try it anyway you like... and let me know what you think.

Cabbage and Pork

2 lbs Cabbage
1.5 lbs Pork Fillet
1 Tbsp Salt (divided)
1 Tbsp Paprika
1 Cup Water
14.5 oz can of Diced/Crushed Tomatoes
1-2 tsp oil (Sunflower... but I will probably use Canola today)

Cut the cabbage in cubes - I usually half it, and then cut strips - about 1 inch thick, then cut across 1 inch thick again.
Put the cabbage in a big bowl and add 1/2 Tbsp salt to it, and 1 Tbsp of paprika. Here's the secret - crunch the cabbage through with your hands - as if kneading dough... make sure you squeeze it through pretty hard - salting it. It should get kinda wet-ish. Add the diced/crushed can of tomatoes - I prefer crushed, but when I don't have that on hand I use my magic bullet to crush the diced myself. Mix the tomatoes in with the cabbage well.
Cut the pork fillets into 1 inch strips, throw them in the pressure cooker, add the oil over them and the rest of the salt (1/2Tbsp). Cover with the cabbage and tomato mix and 1 cup of water.
Cook on medium heat until the pressure cooker 'whistles' (I have never used one, nor do I know if that is the right term to use here.. but that is how my mom described it to me). Once it 'whistles' turn the heat to low, and let cook for about 1.5 hrs.
Carefully let the steam out of the pressure cooker, make sure it is all out, and carefully unlatch the top. Open and serve.

Need Some Excitement In My Life

So, it's finally Friday.... I can't wait for the weekend! However, my weekend won't consist of anything fun.. because I have nothing planned. I am hoping Nick and I can finally go see a movie (we have been trying to go the past two weekends... but he has been busy with school and him and I were both sick... so we haven't gone yet). Anyway... what movie should we go see, if we happen to work that into our weekend schedule? What else can two people w/ no friends do on a very cold weekend, in effin' Ohio?! I am soooooo longing for some social time w/ friends... I miss having friends to hang out with, and to do absolutely nothing exciting with.. yet still have fun!
Ummm... will somebody please move to Cleveland... or at least come visit.. and make me some friends?! :(

The last couple of days have been really blah... I have been feeling pretty home sick.. I have been down and out for no apparent reason, and I hate it! There really isn't anything in particular bothering me... but I'm still all sad and emotional and irritated... I really really hate it when I get like this! What the hell can I do to feel better, when there is nothing really wrong, yet I feel like a piece of poop??